Reasoning, Justification and Timing

You know how sometimes when you get a thought or idea in your head about something, you seem to be more perceptive to that thought or idea around you? How you start to seeing or hearing and being reminded of this thought and how through these various situations your idea will be either affirmed in you mind or will be disproved? Well I've been having this happen a lot to me lately. Like there is this important message that needs to get through to me, and through repetitions and reminders from all around me hopefully I will take it to heart.

At our Convention last month a main point that stood out to me was that of our reasoning. Then since then I keep seeing this caution in my personal study, at the Meetings, through various examples and conversations with friends. How our reasoning can be off, how we can reason or justify something wrongfully. While the knowledge that the heart is "treacherous and desperate" is accepted it's hard to swallow that our logic and judgment can be misleading as well. There are so many things that because of wrongful desires and allowing our hearts to affect our logic, we can start to come up with all these various reasons as to why what is not ok, now is for us. We can justify this to ourselves, then sometimes to others as well. This idea makes everything so uncertain. Remembering though while our circumstances, attitudes and view points change with time, Jehovah's standards stay the same always and are trustworthy. This brings the ever strong need for self evaluation, which I feel I am constantly doing, especially right now.
I feel like I can't trust my thinking at all. After many changes in my circumstances, I find myself more emotional than ever and this just makes me feel vulnerable to allowing my treacherous heart to start overtaking my logic and causing me to reason and justify things in my life that are far from the correct path I should be on. This is why I am grateful for all of these reminders that I've been given. Reminding me to constantly be on guard and honestly self evaluating my thinking and reasoning. Hopefully as I adjust better to all that is happening in my life, I can be a little more laxed and trust myself a little more, but only a little.

This has all made me look and see where others have failed as well, as a warning for myself. Trying to distinguish where they might have started to justify that their actions were no longer harmful, and various warning signs to look for before their eventual fall. Do I find myself close to any of these bad examples that I know? Where am I really, and where do I need to be?